As a counsellor and someone who believes that mental health is one of the most important aspects to overall health, I see a counsellor of my own on a regular basis to assist me both in my own personal journey and with the journey of practice with Kennedy with Love.
I believe that what gives me the edge in my practice and why I am successful with my clients has very little to do with my education in a school capacity and much more to do with my experiences as I have walked this journey of life. I am merely a facilitator for my clients to work through their challenges and find their way back to themselves and the path that calls their soul the loudest.
The choice to follow my souls call into the counselling field came after many many years of path missteps. I knew that I wanted to be in the counselling field when I was in High School. In my career prep. class I had researched and planned to go to university to become a pediatric psychologist. I knew that I wanted to help people and make a difference in this world at a very young age and as it goes with life, we get introduced to money and new lifestyles (nothing wrong with this by the way) and you choose different.
What would it look like if we could choose our dreams, choose the path that is calling our soul so loudly that it take a shit ton of discontentment and distraction of many forms to cover up the song of the longing soul.
Don't get me wrong, the detour I took was the detour I needed to experience heartbreak, love, fear, shame, guilt, sadness, glimmers of joy, excitement and hope. It was the detour that lead me to the new path. The path I found was full of tuning in, getting quiet and listening to the song of my soul. Allowing the buried emotions, traumas, fears to rise to the surface, be seen, felt and released.
What if what feels like the detour really is the path? What if all the times I feel like I made the wrong choice, I was making the choice that was leading me back to my highest good and the highest good of all the lives that I will have the privilege to affect during my life in this body at this time.
I just finished a book called "Mutant Message Down Under" - By Marlo Morgan. If you can get your hands on this book, please read it - it is full of juicy life lessons of love and trusting the process.
The Tribe that she travels with instilled one major theme through out the book and it is this - when we want for something; whether it be an object, guidance, creative inspiration or merely the basic needs of food or water or shelter, ask for it and then right behind the ask, add in "If it is in the highest good for all life everywhere".
The way we choose to view our existence in this life is 100% our choice. How we choose to show up and be seen in this life is 100% our choice. It took me many many years of discontent and sadness to build up the courage to believe that I could have different (I don't even know if I truly believed that I deserved better - that has taken much more time).
Many difficult and challenging decisions were made. Many days and nights enveloped in fear. Many days of tears, anxiety so bad it felt like there was an elephant permanently residing on my chest. I truly did not understand what it meant to be quiet, still, calm. These were not words included in my vocabulary let alone concepts that I understood.
There are many moments for me that stand out as moments that were leading me - guiding me. One moment that stands out for me was about 7 years ago, Daren and I had moved out of our Port Moody condo and moved into his parents basement. I remember at first feeling so incredibly embarrassed that we were in the position that we needed help to get ourselves back on track and this opportunity was going to set us up and put us in a position where we would be able to purchase a home for the first time.
I was working an outside sales job, making good money and feeling that very familiar elephant on my chest every single day. Many days I thought to myself that I truly did not know how I was going to be able to continue feeling this way. Something had to give. I was on Facebook and an ad popped up on my feed for Oprah and Deepak 21 Day Meditation journey. I signed myself up and began meditating after work each day. I felt like a new person suddenly. Within 5 or 6 days I was noticing a difference in my ability to handle the stressors of every day life.
This was a pivotal moment in my journey. I truly believe that the introduction of the meditation journey was divine intervention and that was the first step that I took on my path back to me. It would be another 5 years, cancer cells on my cervix, infertility diagnoses, purchase of a home, second trimester miscarriage, 3 jobs and a 1 year counselling program before I would find my way to my counselling path.
The constant throughout the past 7 years has been meditation, journalling, rest and just plain taking time for myself. Making me a priority in my own life.
As Arthur Abbott says in one of my favourite movies The Holiday - "Iris, in the movies we have leading ladies and we have the best friend. You, I can tell, are a leading lady, but for some reason, you're behaving like the best friend."
Iris replies "You're so right. You're supposed to be the leading lady of your own life for God's sake!"
I realized that I was tired of behaving like the best friend and the only way I would fully embody my souls purpose in this life was to become the leading lady of my life.
I accepted the Leading Lady role.
I commit to continuing my self discovery and soul work -if it is in the highest good for all of life everywhere. I will forever be responsible for putting my souls song on the staff paper of this life - if it is in the highest good for all of life everywhere.
I have one request of the universe at this time - Please keep showing me the way to whomever, whatever and wherever I am needed - If it is in the highest good for all of life everywhere!
xo
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